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I'm sorry for not being active much. I've been busy but I am writing a story so yeah :D
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Hai guise! So uhhh I started making Minecraft art for the summer :)) Right now, I'm really blank minded so if you have any requests at all please message me xD Please make sure the request isn't too hard for a 14 year old Minecrafter .~. lol so yeah that's all xD
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Sorry for being silent for a while. My inspiration randomly blanked out. Now, it came back but its throwing different things at me so expect a lot of random stuff being posted. So yeah this is all I'm gonna say lol. See ya xD
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Christmas is near and so is my birthday. Every year, bad luck comes either on the week before or exactly on my birthday. Sometimes it comes on both. So far, it arrived on the week before. Last Monday was the worst. I was just walking around school when I saw my boyfriend. He was walking with his friends as he usually does. I ran over to him and hid behind him. I wanted to surprise him because well I always do that. When I saw his face, he looked upset. I asked him whats wrong he said its nothing. After a while, his friends had to go to their bus so they left us. I kept asking him whats wrong until my friend interrupted us. She wanted to update me with her life but I wanted to talk to my boyfriend. She pulled me away from him. He told me he needed to tell me something important so I went back to him. He pulled me to the gate and told me he needed to break up with me. He apologized for doing it. He told me I deserve someone better and that he doesn't want to hurt me more when he leaves. You see he was moving away to another school and long distance relationships usually don't last. I couldn't say a word. I couldn't tell him that I love him and I wanted him to stay or that I hated him and I hope something bad happens to him. I just told him I understand. He gave me his half heart back. He told me to give it to someone who could love me as much as he did. After that, I ran. I wish I said more. I wish I said thank you for a wonderful relationship and for renewing my thoughts on love. I wish I didn't run away from him crying. He gave me his grad pic. I want to give it back but he told me that I may keep it. I really don't want to. It's just going to be a constant reminder of him. It hurts to see someone you love just leave your life completely. I lost someone very close to me thanks to him. I am not saying he killed the person but he just had a misunderstanding with him before and they became enemies. That person was like a brother to me. I lost a brother for a boyfriend. I am so stupid for realizing only now how stupid that is. Yeah so if I made you depressed I am sorry you can ask for any literature you want for Christmas. SO um DERP...
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I have no awkward story for today. But, OMF OMF OMF OMF  My friend and I decided to collab and write a PoTO fanfic. It is going good so far and I will post the finished result. He is not a Deviant but yeah. Oka actually I do have an awkward story. Two to be exact. First, Was there ever a day where everything reminded you of one thing? Today was that day for me. Even when I woke up, that one thing was there somehow. That one thing was the song "I won't give up". Everywhere I went, I heard it. Being hummed down the halls, playing on someone's phone, sung by a class and Damn I got annoyed by it. It was my song. It is my song. I had the awful mistake of singing it while I was with my ex. Now it will remind me of the mistake I made. It made my day bad. Although the cute moment when the whole school watched a fourth year guy asked a fourth girl to the movies did lift my spirits up for a moment. Anyways next awkward story. Have you ever been called stupid or ugly? I have been called both and cried about it. But that was in the past. Now if someone calls me that I will smack their face so hard it will look like blush. Sorry that isn't my point. I will be completely honest. I have a boyfriend. I won't say anything more because I hate people spreading information about me. Since October, my classmates saw me walking and talking with him. Now is the time they decided to break me. I don't get along with my class. Or at least with half of them. They are either "Plastic" or just annoy me like hell. I don't think they like me back. They have kept their distance for 7 months. They have called me slut, whore, porn star, and much more. It never got to me. I have much worse torment when I get home to my older sister. Today my classmates go around my desk and say stuff about my boyfriend. They called him stupid, ugly, fag, retarded, donkey hole (trying not to curse). I kept telling them they were wrong but they just kept saying it. It got worse when they started asking questions. Questions like "What base are you guys on? or Why are you dating that retard?" They got tired of it so they went back to their places. I ran out of the classroom during lunch. I threw my pen to the ground. I wanted to scream so badly. I can't with all the cameras around and teachers of course. I fixed myself for a moment and went back to the classroom. My friend noticed my face wasn't smiling as it usual is. He asked what was wrong. I told him everything and started to cry. He hugged me like a teddy bear but I kept crying. My seat mates asked what's wrong but I only told two of them while the other was left to wonder. I hate this. Was my boyfriend getting teased because I am his girlfriend? Am I the bringer of bad luck to others? My boyfriend gave me the cold shoulder for weeks until now. Now he tells me that he can't say the three words to me because he thinks we should slow down. Should I be feeling heart broken? Because I am. It hurts to be told that the person you love won't say it back to you. I have no one to talk to about it. My friend who I usually talk to about this was embarrassed with the class so she hates all of us. I need to scream. I just want to let go. Sadly, I have my term exams tomorrow and I haven't studied...
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